I am Mentally Insane!

Well this may throw you for a loop but I have some weird ticks and its hard to describe them but I am not literally crazy. One of them is I have to write whatever I do down to acheive a goal. Like for general fat loss to start riding faster, I have to keep a journal of everything I ate and how many calories I burned and how many miles I rode over which terrain. Since I despise writing, I just cut back on my food a lot. Within about two weeks from now I will be around 140-145 which is my goal weight as I am 6' tall.